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I guess it’s all sunk in now
It only took a couple weeks
And now I’m holding onto strings
Disintegrating as I speak

Is there a word in English
To name this eerie kind of taste 
Half amused and one half rage
Bitter-tragi-comic-sweet

Life is so fucking comic
My heart is rolling in its grave
The second you start feeling safe
It’s time to jump again

I’m onto something this time
I’m laughing with the crosseyed stars
I’m cracking jokes, I’m slapping knees
I’m rolling on the floor, so…

please don’t worry 
please don’t hurt me
please don’t 

~ Jan 6 2004